i carry this heavy love warmth like the glow of a candle on a nightstand looking to light a corner of the cold room that isn’t possible. the light only reaches so far i douse it with gasoline risking starting a blaze of self destruction i wanted to run with you into that glow i can’t say the words i feel because i miss you yet i don’t want to i still remember the jokes in the night your skin on my skin the room is intoxicated with bliss the hazel glow of your eyes i wanted to spend every moon with you now i spend every moon looking up at each star hoping to taste this feeling again i’ve never been so fragile.